the strokes are playing in the background with their one of many hits, 'someday'. not in the situation nor environment to catch and understand the lyrics so, that shall be done when circumstances are feasible.

anyhow, the strokes was a recommendation by a relative who's studying architect, who did science in secondary and college, who enjoys british and rebellious musicians who freely express this through everything: behaviour, clothing, lyrics, outlook, etc. my relative is 20. shes shorter than me but that has nothing to do with the point im trying to make..which is really nothing. just elaboration on something really of no particular. however, in all this 'elaboration on nothing', im indirectly making a point. confusing? sorry parveen, you were always better at explaining. ha.

shall leave this as it is for now. 'meaningless'. till later. seek for help whenever necessary. take care then and God bless.

they are playing sade at the moment. and suddenly a horde of patients rushed in. one after the other. one with a bleeding head. one with a fever. one with strange skin problem. spoilt the music. memory of the song lost just like that. but hey, the song's still around. and now, ive got new memories. how lovely. really. going for lunch now. take care and practice patience. God bless all.



You belong in the world of balance, where
everything has two sides and everything is not
always what it appears on the outside. Of
course, if you have a sense of humor, you may
find employment as a sarcastic comedian. If
not, enjoy the choices that are presented to
you through life, they will always have two
sides to them,one which leads you to the light,
and the other which entrenches you in darkness.
Walk on with hope, my friend.


Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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you aint got it like me and ****** *** **. goodness gracious. missy e speaks too fast that some of them words sound foul, know what i mean?

somebodys birthdays coming up. sigh. somebodys special other got her the sigg. so what should i get her? hints shah?

parents just got home. dad is in one of his usual moods, naturally. men have pms as i have painfully learnt. and im tired. mom too. dad too. arent we all? wouldnt it be lovely to simply live in complete oblivion?

my fantasy as was asked once before still is: to escape the present. escape its worries and burdens and responsibilities.

yes, life wont be easy without effort on your part. my dad and mom constantly remind me so. you have to work for a better life. a better possibility. but really, wouldnt it be lovely to live in oblivion? in a world of your own where you can overcome life's tiring and overwhelming obstacles as easily as a baby could drool?

forgive the whining. it irritates me too. just breathe said danielle of 'ever after'. let it go. sounds very familiar. said this many times before. let it go. still learning and struggling to. but hey, we'll still live even after them horrible memories. many have. and yet, the thought still lingers. if only.

o stop it already. the mind debates with itself. things could be worse. bloody more worse than it is this moment. so stop them dreaming and live. live this moment and suck it in. dreaming wont do much good. live and let it go. it? yes it. 'it' which refers to unprofitable mind-wandering. a simple waste of time.

lets give a toast then to realism and practice a cautioned optimism and pray for strength and health for all. amin. take care now and look up. God bless.

dear parveen, how have you been? thanks for the pleasant surprise. still see you're a fan of chicken, both in public and private, if you know what i mean. and do i miss you? hmm..maybe. you take care dear and enjoy calling people up! God bless..

dear aishah, you still tired from yesterday's action-packed session with the therapist? ha. you having a good time ay? you take care now and please, behave..

dear noraida, how are you dear? really think you should enrol for archery lessons- keep missing me..ha. now now take care during them lessons..God bless! hee..

dear gggerald, happy happy birthday! happy happy birthday! yea!

dear willie, happy happy surfing! happy happy surfing! ha!

right then, shall take my leave for now. till later, practice caution and dont drink and burp.


You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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at work at this very moment. theres a bazaar going on both downstairs and over here, maybe..somebody lost their ic. somebody else thinks they have a fever but his temperature reads 36.3 celsius. gerard, oops, gerald and willie are happy with their surfing the net time and again. so am i. but only when the coasts are clear. im taking a big risk but what the hey. we only live once. did aishah say that?

hi aishah! doing well dear?

hi duck! like your new blog skin..very dark.

hi charmaine! young men or old would fall for you dear. you no chasing no cradle la.

hi khairul! hows life?

hi all! hi hi hi..becoming quite a drag aye..and o yes how can i forget..hello to you.

shall leave this one as it is..songs in the background doesnt inspire..till later, keep healthy and take care all..

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh. best record of the year? coldplay? sigh sigh sigh. clocks you say? tsk tsk..ok finally, sigh...im still sighing, overwhelmed with the results of the grammys..sigh.

anyways, hows everyone? suns not out on my side but am still living. tolkien inspires one to live even when one is cloaked in darkness. aragorn. frodo. mithradil? questionable but still inspiring. moms watching the telly and dads with me uncle settling family matters. im running a fever which has been on since sunday. strangely enough, after gym session. God knows why. mom says i dont drink enough water. dad just shakes his head and pampers me with attention. i like. :) anyways, its no biggie. im okay. tolkien continually inspires with his writing through the characters and the weather. sigh.

coldplay's trouble is playing in the background. wrote to my aunt on sunday. told her bout the week. was as always one of those days where your troubles are continually refreshed in your bloody mind and things suddenly seem worse than they really are. felt that way before? my sympathies go out to you. its excruciatingly painful. but not that bad as gym session. but as i said to myself, mind over matter. and suddenly as i was typing that, my fingers went berserk for some reason. ha. the mind does not agree with the heart, ay? dum dum..

bought a french movie from mph. thought it was a bad buy. was on impulse actually. the start of that excruciating weekend. so thought id go buy me something to cheer me up. ooh it did. it was nothing i expected. love the ending. think it was better than the ending of matrix revolution. im sorry wachowskis. but really. i think. well maybe, it was the same as matrix revltn's ending. one of those endings that leave you hanging and wanting for more. i love it. its called a la folie pas du tout. he loves me, he loves me not. about erotomania. did i get that right. dont know. but it was good. if youve watched it and think otherwise, do tell me. but one thing that irked me was loic's relationship with his wife and later, his children. perfect. irritatingly so. but hey, the movie didnt have to be completely depressing. so overall, i was pleased with the buy. 9.90. saved meself 10 bucks. stars audrey tautou and samuel le bihan who plays loic. tautou was convincing. her smile fooled me. thought she was good. anyways.

train's indefinitely is playing in the background. and after the pestering from my lovely and worried mother, i have the desperate need to go answer the call of nature. she had me drink lots of water. apparently to cool myself down. ha. ooh the pun. cool myself down. but shant do that here. im not wearing any pampers.

hallos to aishah, noraida, charmaine, puff, khairul, sammie boy, dibah and kak farzanah and whoever else whos reading this. take care now and God bless. till later, im going to the loo.

Dearest _____,

Things could be better. Yet, things could be worse.
Which maxim do you live by?
Things could be better, yes but if you think of what could be or have been, you will continue living in your depressed thoughts.
Things could be worse, dear _____.
Therefore, appreciate the present and thank God for now as...
Things could be worse.

Always behind you,

Raudha.
22nd Jan '04
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