you aint got it like me and ****** *** **. goodness gracious. missy e speaks too fast that some of them words sound foul, know what i mean?

somebodys birthdays coming up. sigh. somebodys special other got her the sigg. so what should i get her? hints shah?

parents just got home. dad is in one of his usual moods, naturally. men have pms as i have painfully learnt. and im tired. mom too. dad too. arent we all? wouldnt it be lovely to simply live in complete oblivion?

my fantasy as was asked once before still is: to escape the present. escape its worries and burdens and responsibilities.

yes, life wont be easy without effort on your part. my dad and mom constantly remind me so. you have to work for a better life. a better possibility. but really, wouldnt it be lovely to live in oblivion? in a world of your own where you can overcome life's tiring and overwhelming obstacles as easily as a baby could drool?

forgive the whining. it irritates me too. just breathe said danielle of 'ever after'. let it go. sounds very familiar. said this many times before. let it go. still learning and struggling to. but hey, we'll still live even after them horrible memories. many have. and yet, the thought still lingers. if only.

o stop it already. the mind debates with itself. things could be worse. bloody more worse than it is this moment. so stop them dreaming and live. live this moment and suck it in. dreaming wont do much good. live and let it go. it? yes it. 'it' which refers to unprofitable mind-wandering. a simple waste of time.

lets give a toast then to realism and practice a cautioned optimism and pray for strength and health for all. amin. take care now and look up. God bless.