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Friday, January 02, 2004

days i had with you. by kings of convenience. 2nd Jan. sigh. words are hard to get by now. get this: jackson five's i'll be there. ooh..such optimism. such certainty. did i just hear them singing '' i'll be a stripper?'' hmm..it has been a while since i last cleaned me dirty ears. excuse me. ha. seriously, why the certainty? good God. wish i could have that feeling too. right. o mine..

whats next. i hear snapping. jazz? yep. harry connick junior with lets call the whole thing off. from when harry met sally. i say 'errs-ster', you say 'oyster'. and the piano does its thang. bop bop bee.

wearing a bright, not luminous, orange shirt from malacca. a creation of malaysian artist, charles cham. met the guy. goatee and all. like his shop. had his art painted on the walls. his trademark is this orang utan. hmm. looked like one? dont remember.

lullaby is playing in the background. shawn mullins. has he sung himself to sleep or am i just missing out here? heard from him lately? by the way, shout outs to dear nurul. been a very long while since we last talked. yes family matters. leave them be? see you around dear. wicked hair cut. great smile. we need more smiles than ever. you think?

come now. sing along with me. 'sing..sing a song. sing out loud. sing out strong..' the carpenters. prefer the original to that of the american idol's. la lalala lala..

surface. all on the surface. i like coldplay. 3eb. ooh..and delinquent habits. their songs are on double take, the movie. a comedy. cant remember the plot.. a bit of action, comedy every where else and the usual fling. aah. dido. whiteflag.

i will go down with this shit. went down hard but surviving. arent we all? norah jones. talent. God's gift. if you could choose a gift, what would it be? delusion. different from always being in denial. just plain delusion. strangely enough, i would choose delusion. the gift of being deluded with your own happy thoughts, oblivious to the harsh truth of life. a perfect gift it is not. dont think so, at least. maybe it would be if it were to be living in oblivion. God..i dont know. life is good. it could be worse ya. before, i always thought it could be better but this has changed now. life could be worse. most definitely. yes, it could be better. but not all of life innit? sigh sigh. life could be worse and so, i thank God for this life. including the tears and pain it has brought along. dum de dum.

sigh, another one of the many sappy songs. to top it off, its an old sappy song. air supply's goodbye. next track is power..ha. firehouse's when i look into your eyes. tsk tsk. here we go again with the impossible certainty and optimism. really. how do they come up with such dreams? aah. delusion. a God-send aye? understood. delusion. hence, these ridiculous dreams. i have such dreams too. only dreams. delusion. yes. i think i understand.

well then, ooh, the foo fighters' walking after you. nish. very nish. if you walk out on me, im walking after you. hmm. a stalker? a possesive heartbroken lover? hmm. i cannot be without you matter of fact. im on your back. blimey..

listen to the everly brother's let it be me. an old tune from the sounds of it. o God. the emotions behind the song is similar to that of walking after you. egad..possesive control freaks? i dont know. a love song it is but..hmm.

moving on and away. how was your day? spent mine helping me dear lovely and adorable mam. dad was away, out of the house for some personal matters. went out later at night. reached home near 12+. they are sound asleep. love them. strange and beautiful parents. hope you love your parents as much as i do..sometimes the last thing you want comes in first. sometimes the first thing you want never comes. and i know the waiting is all you can do, sometimes. you can relate to that? aqualung's strange and beautiful. haunting.

ooh..daddy wasnt there is playing. the ending amuses me everytime. d. a. d.d. y. hee. by the way, in the mood of some cheering up? listen to beck's guess im doing fine. listened to it and teared. moved me. can relate to the song except for seeing a blue bird and listening to it singing. listen and youll understand.

enjoy this formality of not worrying about the apostrophes and what nots. a freedom i yearn in life and in mind. song is awfully long. 5min9sec. if you enjoy a good listen and lesson, beck's guess is a song that will make you reminisce fond and painful memories of yesterday and perhaps, allow you to drift into a slumber. ha. well, if anything, i like it.

enough of listening. sleep is mandatory. so sleep it is. good morning all and God bless.